what means the most to me

ONE of my favorite moments...


when mae is deep-belly-giggling at hugh
when Tomi & Hugh are playing 'going on a trip to Utah' and packing their backpacks full of necessities {toys, blankies}
when tomi kisses mae's head and gives her big hugs
when h & t wrestle on the ground laughing 
when tomi 'reads' mae a book while mae all the while is trying to grab it and eat it.  both are smiling
when Hugh invites Tomi to go in the tent, play ninjas, or play baseball in the backyard together
"hugh...you have playgroup today...."   'Can Tomi come?'
when tomi lays her head on hugh's lap during church to sleep while hugh tickles her arm.


nothing ignites joy in my heart like experiencing my children having sweet interactions with each other. 
it is true....the best thing you can give your child...is a sibling!


with that said. although quite a bit earlier than expected.
oh...little mae mae. we will be giving you a beautiful gift. unlike any other. and one that will bless your life forever. 
we will be giving you...a little sibling.
H & T you can have in on the fun, too!

now to say I am not scared...would be a lie. 
i can't even wrap my head around getting inside a store with 4!
i sometimes find myself internally in a panic. not sure i can really do this! 3 has challenged me!!
Do you know how often i get the comment, "You're busy!!" {as i push the double stroller while hugh runs around beside me} I smile and agree, but sometimes I am thinking to myself....you don't know the half of it, lady! {just wait till my belly pops}


As the world increasingly asks, “Are these all yours?” we thank you for creating within the Church a sanctuary for families, where we honor and help mothers with children.

Conference talk by Elder Neil L Andersen, "Children"

so I have my panic moments.
BUT all in all....I welcome this little bean to grow inside me. And I welcome with a grateful heart a new sweet soul to my family!


"Because we believe in Families and we believe in children."

Conference talk by Elder Neil L Andersen, "Children"

When I see the sweet smile of Mae...and it is soooo sweet.

i am filled with love.

and when i think of this sweet baby readying to join our family that familiar love engulfs my heart.

a baby is the best blessing in the world!! How can i not rejoice?
it is going to be a challenge, but what a beautiful challenge!

I keep telling myself....Grandma Egan did it! {her #4 {4 and under} was my own mother....and she is amazing. Grandma Egan did go on to have 7 more children. so i won't attempt to put myself in her same leauge. but there is hope & inspiration. 

加 油!! {literal translation: add oil}